Wednesday 25 March 2015

Documentary: Stacey Dooley - Beaten by my boyfriend

It would be easy to mock Stacey Dooley, I guess, if you're a snob. I still don't know quite where she emerged from, and I looked it up once. She's a young woman with a thick accent (she sounds Cockney but I remember from an old episode about extremists that she's from Luton, which is near my home town of doom). But I like her documentaries and the way she interviews people. She seems genuinely interested in finding out about the underbelly of life, be it drugs, extremism, or tonight's topic. There's just something about her I like. My mum always says we're all from one of six tribes (some Bible crap, I think) and I feel like Stacey Dooley is from my tribe. It's partly the Midlands thing, partly the way she looks, I just feel an affinity with her. Her documentaries are very watchable. Who could forget the drug that gives you crocodile skin? I don't think I've ever seen a man look more high, or closer to death. It was fascinating. And Stacey Dooley didn't give him Louis Theroux side eye or Nick Broomfield impassiveness. She treated him like a fellow human.
Every 30 seconds police receive a 999 call about domestic violence. Domestic violence is a subject I had face to face experience with as a child and I care more about pretty passionately. We had our fair share of 999 calls ourselves and it wasn't much fun. It wasn't much fun watching my mum get her skull cracked open, I must say. In fact, it fucked me up royally.
This documentary focuses on young women in violent relationships. I can't imagine ever being in a controlling or violent relationship, but that's as a direct result of my own experience; I just wouldn't put up with that for a minute. Still, I understand very well how women get sucked into these relationships and how controlling boyfriends/ husbands operate. I've seen it happen to my friends, despite me begging them to leave. It's not until you're in that relationship or that environment that you understand the hold those relationships have on you. These men grind you down until you don't know what your own personality is anymore.
This poor woman is having her door fixed because her thug boyfriend has kicked it in while pregnant. Every door in my house as a child had a hole in it from a fist from the men I grew up with. Violence is one thing, but living under the threat of violence is another, and is just as bad (well, almost).
'During holidays and major sporting events 999 calls increase.' Just think about that. Women get battered because their idiot husband's team loses. That's a reality. Doesn't that terrify you? It scares the shit out of me. Imagine scaring the hell out of the person you love, harming the person you love. The scary part is when children witness this horror, or have to live with it on an ongoing basis. It's just incredibly cruel. But women are too scared to go, or don't have a place to go that's safe.
One in four women suffer from domestic violence and two women die a week. Two women die a week and it really feels like no one gives a fuck.
Stacey is visiting a refuge. One of the scariest scenes in The Fall was when that abusive husband found his wife in the refuge. That's my worst fucking nightmare, all those vulnerable women and an animal like that finds them (and yes, I know it's not real). I support Refuge because probably the scariest thing I can imagine is a woman leaving her violent partner and being turned away because there's nowhere for her to go. That's when men kill women. That's the riskiest time to be a woman.
I wish women knew better the warning signs of these psycho men; and these charming romantic types are the worst, these fuckers who buy clothes for you. I wouldn't put up with anyone jealous as that's a sign. There are so many tiny signs, but like Stacey says, they seem flattering at first. But it's not flattering if you look at it from the perspective of that man would treat ANY woman that way, so how are you special? Any woman would be treated like his own personal property.
It's so wrong that women lose their children because of abusive men, and because they can't figure out a way out. They are being punished twice, and for what? Stacey said, 'people might seem you're picking your abusive relationship over your baby.' But it's not like a domestic violence victim is making a sane and sensible choice. They aren't seeing things straight because they have had their heads screwed up by these controlling bastards.
These injunctions are good that stop men from even coming near their victims or they get five years in prison. Stacey is following the guy giving out the injunctions to these fucking arseholes now. I couldn't look at them myself.
I was disappointed that we had to have the obligatory 'women are violent too' mention, which is such a minuscule issue it's not even worth mentioning, except to make men feel better about all the women they murder. I hate that they fudge the issue like that! The show is called 'Beaten by my boyfriend.' And even now MEN on Twitter are telling me how women are violent, too. Well, they weren't in my house. It was just the men. The men with the tempers and the men with the baseball bats and the men with the brute fucking force. It just said nine out of ten attacks are by men and still men whine 'what about women who beat men up?' It's my female friends who have abusive dads, not abusive mums. I just wish these men would shut the fuck up. I'd be ashamed if I was a man. I wouldn't be arguing with women about the statistics. I'd be trying to work out why the fuck men were doing it. Why should I cry for that one man getting beaten up for every nine women? Fuck him. I don't care about him, I really don't, and if that sounds harsh, then tough. I guess my experiences made me that way. Honestly, it makes me fucking furious. Are there refuges full of hundreds of terrified men, all across the country? No, there aren't! So shut up. Stick your statistics, because I don't care. I care about women getting battered in front of their children and killed for daring to leave their boyfriend.
Why DO men do this to women? Why do they think they have the right to treat women like this? I just don't get it. Women just have to stop dying. Men have to stop killing us. Claire's law is really important but it's not enough. It's terrible that funding for refuges are being cut. It's a death sentence to women. But like the Tories fucking give a shit. What's a few dead women to them? I liked Stacey sticking it to Teresa May. I liked her question of 'what would you like to say to these girls?' a if an MP cares.
I'm glad Stacey went to a place where abusers get rehabilitated because I do believe - in fact, I know - that men can be rehabilitated but a massive part of that is actually waking up and realising what the fuck you've done. I've seen it happen. And I've seen it not happen. And these boneheaded straw man arguments of 'well women do it, too' doesn't help either side. It's just another way to put women in their place along with bashing in their front doors - and their skulls.

13 comments:

Anonymous said...

There is a lot of hatred in this blog. Foul language does not help the argument neither do blanket assumptions. You obviously hate men and that just makes you the female equivalent of a mysoginist thus invalidating what might have been a perfectly valid discussion!

Anonymous said...

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lightupvirginmary said...

Well it's my blog so I guess I can say what I want, swear if I want, and do what the hell I want. Would you be telling a guy he couldn't swear on his own blog? I guess if you weren't posting as 'anonymous' I'd bother having a discussion with you, but frankly, what's the point?
It's clear this blog is written from MY PERSONAL PERSPECTIVE so if you don't like it, or you disagree, tough shit. See ya.

Anonymous said...

My name is Michael and I don't differentiate between male and female; we're all just people.
It IS your blog unfortunately your particular brand of racism renders any meaningful exchange impossible. You come across as a very damaged individual harboring some very dark feelings. You should share your feelings with someone who will listen to you unconditionally and without judgment. Try Samaritans on 08457909090 in complete confidence.
Take care!

lightupvirginmary said...

Where does racism come into it?! I think you've had one too many.
I'm not trying to have a 'meaningful exchange', I've simply written a blog about something that has affected me personally. How do my feelings about domestic violence make me damaged? I only have 'dark feelings' towards trolls. Thanks for the feedback.

Anonymous said...

Michael, what are you on about? Did you not just read that one in four women suffer from domestic violence and two women die a week from domestic violence. Why aren't YOU angry? Why don't YOU hate the men that are doing that to those women? Why aren't YOU swearing?!
I'd be shocked to read a blog about such an awful topic that doesn't show anger. This is a subject that deserves anger.
And yes, we're all just people, but this is a topic that deserves some differentiation between men and women, because it's women that are disproportionately being victimized. Only someone from a place of privilege can say that these differences don't matter. They matter to the women who are being abused by men.

Anonymous said...

You're right, violence, any violence, is wrong to whomever this violence is being directed at.
Men who commit these crimes deserve to be caught and punished; this I believe goes without saying. Do I feel sorry for the victims of crime be they women, children or indeed men? Yes of course I do. Do I feel hatred towards any easily targeted group of people be they men or muslim or immigrants or even politicians MP's and so on? No of course not.

Anonymous said...

You're right, violence, any violence, is wrong to whomever this violence is being directed at.
Men who commit these crimes deserve to be caught and punished; this I believe goes without saying. Do I feel sorry for the victims of crime be they women, children or indeed men? Yes of course I do. Do I feel hatred towards any easily targeted group of people be they men or muslim or immigrants or even politicians MP's and so on? No of course not.

lightupvirginmary said...

So how does that add up to me needing to call Samaritans?

Anonymous said...

If I may be so blunt but you seem to have huge resentments and feelings of anger, rage and hatred. You may well be in need of counselling and in addition to anger management issues you may have a tendency to self harm but of course only you can make that judgement.
All the best, Michael

Anonymous said...

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lightupvirginmary said...

Er... I don't self harm. I've written a book about a self harmer, which you obviously know. You're obviously a snoop/stalker. I don't have anger management issues, I just care passionately about things. I don't hit people, I don't abuse people, I have happy and healthy relationships and friendships. You don't know me, and never will. Get lost.

Anonymous said...

You have SERIOUS issues about anger here. All you did in this post was shriek and roar about how evil men are, and the moment people try to give an opinion about this, you erase it with the 'my blog my opinion' bullshit that you feel makes you so superior. You're silencing other opinions just because you don't like them. Enjoy your dictatorship blog, glad you'll have zero followers soon.